For years now I've always preferred romance anime, the serious kind not like some harum/ecchi/fan-service show (although I do like them as well).
It never used to bother me, I just shrugged it off as "It's just my preference". However, recently. I've started thinking a little deeper.
Is it a lust for something I don't have?
Is it me trying to make myself feel less empty?
Just like most /a/nons I was never popular at school. Spent a lot of time alone; the "friends" I did have used to use me and talk shit about me behind my back. I got bullied a lot, in many ways, nothing ever extreme enough for it to be a legit reason to sepuku but enough to make every breathing moment painful. Maybe that was a slight over exaggeration but my point still stands.
It's obvious I've had a gf or any other kind of relationship with a girl so these kinds of shows offer me something I never had.
>a girl that likes you
You get the picture.
I assumed things would get better once I left the education system and got into the world of work. Although it's true that I like where I work and what I do, these feelings still reside inside me.
Anyway, I recently watched pic related and, to use a phrase from a certain someone, it was what pushed me over the edge. I seem to have fallen into a world of constant feels.
I could relate with the show a lot. Well the MC anyway. Sorry, allow me to get back to the topic I created this thread for. I don't enjoy pain. But, for reason even though I know these shows provide me with pain I continue to watch them; search for hours on end to find more and more.
It's becoming an addiction. They're like a drug, no, a life line for me. I feel as if they're the reason I'm here today making this post.
To sum it up nicely. What I'm askinPost too long. Click here to view the full text.