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N'cha! Have you been practicing your wotagei?
Don your happi, your headbands, grab your lightsticks, and drink your booze. Let's burn out the rest of the month with one last r/a/dio.
Join us to have some fun with idols, denpa, and assorted nonsense with some good drinks, good food, and good company tonight.
I know some of you couldn't make it last time, so let's make this stream the best one ever. I'll be taking /r/s for some time and I'll do my best to fit it all in.
So, let's have fun. What are you looking forward to next season? What non-airing anime have you been watching? Have you been getting into any /jp/ hobbies?
I swore on my Tsuppari Heart that I'd be watching Goblin Slayer last stream, but I'm mostly looking forward to the doga kobo shows, Sypce, and just trying everything out and getting surprised by something good.
/r/ Kinmarai Happy End
Seems you've had a bad run-in with the Alacrity Daemon on 8/a/.
Seems like I'm permabanned from all of fullchan now. Guess I can still post here.
About how long are we looking to party tonight?
>looking forward to next season?
You asked this last thread, but answers more or less the same. I never did watch Thunderbolt Fantasy though, so I might binge that sometime to prepare for S2.
I was kind of hoping he had just fucked up for whatever reason.
Idoltism 2 weeks in a row? Nice.
>couldn't sleep at all last night
>tired as fuck
This is gonna kill me. /r/ Hotel Nichifornia
I still need to watch Thunderbolt Fantasy, too, but there's no way I'm going to be able to get it all in before S2 airs.
Hot damn I've been listening to this stuff for the past month or so. Nice stuff.
Wasn't today supposed to be a rest day? We've had constant streams for way too long.
It'd be next week I thought. We had one three weeks ago I think.
I thought we were supposed to get a new streamer next week?
Yeah, I hate to say it, but our bye week is long overdue.
mganon is just trying to make good on his promise to kill us all.
>see CP spambots using TOR
>post about it on /sudo/
>"Oh and here's a screencap of the post in question"
<Get permabanned for posting the screencap
<ban appeal denied
<appeal by mail to codemonkey denied
Guess I shouldn't have done in the first place.
Morning Musume really put out some great tracks back in the day.
You'll either learn to love idols or we'll die with trainroll running over us.
Try use a free proxy or vpn for posting in /a/, but what the fuck that nip is think?
You shouldn't have done that anon. Now the FBI is going to show up and arrest you.
Might as well just start linking to CP yourself
Wouldn't it have made more sense to just link to the post in question? You can cross-board link by simply typing >>>/boardname/postnumber instead of >>postnumber
That's where you fucked up. You're unwittingly spreading it further. It's a disease, it needs to be quarantined and contained, and you just took it out of the exclusion zone and dropped it right in their laps.
What are the main Idols of today?
>Have you been getting into any /jp/ hobbies?
I am just starting One and another VN.
Why is Gabu is cuter in is NEET form?
>not using a VPN for all posting
You brought it on yourself
I love you miracle.
>Wouldn't it have made more sense to just link to the post in question?
Wouldn't even have needed to. Seems like the spam was on multiple boards and the one I capped was on /sudo/ itself. I thought it'd be deleted by them time anybody is able to reply to my question. I should have edited out the links in the screencap, I didn't really think that through.
I'd love to take you out on a fist date anon~
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>What are you looking forward to next season?
Said it last thread, but we're mostly on the same page. I'll also probably watch Skellington Bookstore.
>What non-airing anime have you been watching?
Finished Yuyushiki a few days ago. Finishing up LotGH.
>Have you been getting into any /jp/ hobbies?
Aside from anime and manga, all of my hobbies are either modding Morrowind or /tg/ related.
One day, I want to get a Gundam or FAGirl kit.
/r/ Fullscratch Love
A fist date is fine too.
>death by idorus
I am okay with this.
Fist date are best kind first date.
I put in a whole lot and it's pretty varied. There's a bit of Morning Musume sub units and post units throughout. I wish I could have put in more NEO JAPONISM and Alice Project stuff, but I limited myself. It's turning out to be a pretty fun stream so far and let's keep it this way.
Yukiko Okada is a beautiful idol. Thanks for introducing me to her.
>What non airing anime have you been watching
I've been accumulating a half-watched backlog of shows on my External HDD for months now. I just can't get around to finishing them, nor will I list them, there's almost two dozen. Do any of you ever get the yearning to watch anime, but can never find a specific anime to scratch the itch? Usually I just end up rewatching stuff but it's not the same.
In any case, /r/ this song from Yosuga no Sora.
Do you have a link?
I keep watching new stuff instead of getting around to my backlog. What's the point of a backloh?
I end up watching an episode or two of something like Yugioh.
>What are you looking forward to next season?
Uchi no Maid, that cheerleader one, Tonari no Kyuketski, Goblin Slayer, Thunderbolt Fantasy S2, and Yagate Kimi ni Naru
>What non-airing anime have you been watching?
Just watched Dallos today and I'm probably going to watch the Ai yori Aoshi anime now that I've finished the manga.
>Have you been getting into any /jp/ hobbies?
I have some gunpla I still need to put together. And /jp/ movies.
Listen, it's a long way to Mars anon. You can't spend the whole time masturbating.
Realistically though, for when there are dry seasons.
How'd you like the manga? Ai Yori Aoshi is one of the most significant manga and anime of my life.
/r/ アカリがやってきたぞっ - GYARI
/r/ fish song - Susumu Hirasawa
Looks we will have a lot fun with idols.
Fun fact I found her (Yukiko Okada) because of the µ's and youtube algorithm. Aleast one time they did one thing right.
>84 shows in my backlog
>Watched 1 non-airing show this season
I've started to give up on ever finishing my backlog, but you've just gotta find time somehow.
Not at the moment, no.
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I loved it. Aoi was cute throughout, and I can easily say that she was best girl, but the scene with Tina at her old school in Kyushu were quite powerful. I felt bad for her, but Aoi was a better match for Kaoru. As was Kaoru charging in to stop the wedding arrangements (which reminded me of Meiya's route in Muv-Luv except not as silly). I think my favorite parts were when Kaoru and Aoi were alone together, they were always very sweet. As the manga went on, Tina came to the fore out of all the characters and it feels like Taeko got kind of forgotten. There was a brief point where she seemed like she might enter the running, but nothing really came of it and I was fine with that. Her tanline-loli cousin was much better. Overall, I'm excited to watch the anime and put my thoughts together a bit more, as I'm still processing it a bit. One complaint, in the epilogue chapter: where are their children? How has Aoi not even gotten pregnant once in the four years they were living together?
>sat in front of my computer tonight
>"We're between seasons, so I ought to watch one of the 76 shows on my backlog that I;ve already downloaded"
>go back and forth between four or five different folders for a few minutes
>notice r/a/dio is on tonight
Another day passes with no headway.
<notice r/a/dio is on tonight
>Another day passes with no headway.
I know the feeling. On a r/a/dio day I either shower right before the stream or I listen to it for most of the day in my pajamas. Sunday IS supposed to be a day of rest though, right?
It's okay as long as you have another fun night with your friends on /a/.
This is my predicament exactly. I've decided that I'm not going to put any of it off any more. Everyone, which of these shows should I watch, from beginning to end without watching any others?
>Jinrui wa suitai shimashita
>Irresponsible Captain Tylor
>Ashita no Joe
>Abenobashi mahou shoutengai
>Space battleship yamato
All of these are in progress. Please guide me, /a/.
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Shit, was the trainroll cancelled?
Trainroll has been derailed.
The train doesn't wait for anybody.
The stream had fall.
My love, my station.
Like idols would take a filthy train!
And I like starting to love Idols.
That's almost exactly how I felt about it. Thanks for posting.
Tina and Aoi were the best girls. Taeko was really cute, too, and the loli was daughteru material.
The loli was played by one of my favorite idols, and probably my number idol, Momoi Halko. I didn't know her when I watched it, so I hope you can appreciate her voice work.
Taeko's chapters in the hot springs and at the beach was my first time ever reading an ecchi harem as a child. It changed my life, and after reading that volume I found mysteriously in my brother's room, I watched all of Ai Yori Aoshi on Youtube and fell in love with romance animu.
Was something happening with the stream during my Haruhi megamix?
The dirty train was tooting her horn.
Strawberry lolies it is then.
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I'm in the middle of it, so we'll watch it together.
Only now do I realize I should have proofread after adding a sentence or two. The "As" in that sentence about Kaoru charging in goes back to the "powerful" from the second sentence. But I think you got what I meant.
This is a excellent song for the comfy block.
MOTHRA-CHAN I'LL ALWAYS BELIEVE IN YOU
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I need more base butt.
I'm curious what they'll do with it.
They started replacing a lot of 3DCG with 2D in the first as it went on and turned out popular, so I assume they'll be using more from the start in S2.
There's a version of this song sung by Miku right?
Not as far as I know. That was Last Boss. Sachiko Kobayashi.
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I found it. It's called Miku Miku ni shite ageru.
Haha. Doesn't surprise me that exists.
I almost thought this was related to kaiju girls in some way.
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I did that on purpose. MONSTER GIRLFRIEND is a new idol unit.
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Eri's voice is too lewd in this song.
She sings the same way she always does. Perhaps you are starting to fancy her anon?
I think her voice is normal. But her body is another story.
No I mean that breathy part she does at the end 「私以外はダメよ」. It's lewd. Like she's whispering it in your ear.
Just confess already.
I'm sorry but I already have someone I like.
Then confess already.
To who? The person I like? I've done that already.
I haven't watched any of Love Live yet. What are the best options for subs? I'd previously been using fansub.co to compare subs, but it appears to have recently been consumed by MangaDex somehow and no longer exists.
I know, /rec/ and all, but it's a waste not to ask with idol aficionados here.
HTT is the one I have saved.
Since you haven't seen it I would watch the dub cause you really can get into the songs that way.
Well, on the bright side anon, IPs all get unbanned after like 2-3 weeks or so, so you can either lurk or just use a VPN (like you should have in the first place) in the mean time.
Come on. It's pretty obviously not bona fide. I think it was a roundabout way of telling me to kill myself, since I certainly expect it would make me want to.
>the shitposted defending the shitposter
Don't do this, anon. You don't need to take it.
You should have just ignored it in the first place. There's nothing to gain by sucking up to imageboard admins.
Now take this opportunity to get a VPN.
Erica Lindbeck never sang as lewd as Nanjo Yoshino. Dub>Sub
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She did a excellent job in the second half of the show. But Chika did everything wrong.
I want someone to draw Ruby pointing on top a pile of dead idols.
Hey anons, i wanna join you tonight but i'm not at home right now and i don't have cash for the bus guess I'll beg for money again besides that, i'm hiding from two thugs that tried to mug me, so eh.. see you all in a few hours when i figure out how to get home.
Have fun and yellow blue bus.
Ruby doesn't have time for that, she's got a war with Sunrise to fight.
>guess I'll beg for money again
I always wondered what kind of person does that.
Shit anon, good luck with that. See you then.
>i'm hiding from two thugs that tried to mug me
Why don't you grow a pair instead?
Have any /r/ for when you get home? I'll save it for you.
Be safe, anon.
Stay safe, anon. How much distant of home you are?
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>hiding from two thugs
It's Rei-Rei alright.
REIMU IS A FUCKING NIGGER
LA LA LA LA LA LA LA
MASTURBATE TO CARTOONS!
She does always asks random strangers
for gibs for donation in the form of
eyo holup chu gota spare dollah or extra smokes it's for muh church'schikn n shieeet
I can't outright deny that tanned Youmou is cute however.
I got here just in time! My favorite time of the week! How are you f/a/ggots? Enjoying the weekend? Staying away from 3DPD? Or maybe wishing you could murder subhumans?
MASTURBATE TO CARTOONS
I can't do nothing against two people with guns while being unarmed you faggot.
Haru Yo Koi right versión
Very far and to be honest walking the streets at this late at night Is not rhe bestia idea. Specially when Living in south america
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I already murder subhumans (in video games).
All of the above, thanks for asking.
Good luck to you anon.
What game anon?
Glad to hear it!
>Specially when Living in south America
Come on, anon. I had walked a lot times on South America streets in past after the midnight. But I live in "safety city".
Have you masturbated to lolis, mister?
Just for cute ones.
That's why always conceal carry you la la homo man.
>Specially when Living in south america
Nevermind I understand your pain.
Are you a cop? You gotta tell me if you are!
Medieval autism simulators that allow me slay Moors.
I want to be arrested by a loli.
I play CKII, VII, and EUIII as well.
My autism is only high enough to play Civ.
But what about HoI 2 and 3?
Never could get into HoI. Played a bit of Darkest Hour and it just takes too long to do anything compared to the others.
HoI 2 or Darkest Hour don't need autism, just free time.
That's one of my favorite parts in DH. You have plenty of time to plan your military for the war. If you want to get into war fast do the 36 start as Japan.
I don't mind planning, which is what I like in the other games, but in DH war itself is a long chore.
Last Civ I played was Civ 5 and honestly half as bad as people on /v/ like to say it is, dumbed down compared to 4 sure but not bad in and of itself. What's your favorite civilization to play as?
Or play Kaiserreich.
Post your favorite lolis.
Big turned into smol are a cute.
Never really had a main myself, but I remember playing as the French a lot. Also Mayans and Romans. It's been many years though, so I'm feeling really rusty with the game.
Ah I see. Yeah, I guess if you don't like the war mechanics, there's no reason to play DH and HoI3. Personally, the battle mechanics in Vic2 and Eu3 have always bothered me since playing DH. It's just too simple.
Civ is like riding a bike. It pretty much tells you what to do as you play.
Basically, yeah. I've never been into it that much, frankly. I just like watching shit develop and see what happens. It's fun uncovering this world and watch the nations fight each other.
I've logged hundreds of hours on that game but the constant save breaking updates and DLC that nobody asks for killed it for me. Is EUIII any better than the fourth one, generally speaking? I've missed my early modern Europe sim.
Or should I just go with crusader kings? I don't usually go colonizaiton anyways.
Civilization is top tier with friends, otherwise it's too shallow for my tastes. It strikes that perfect balance where it's complex enough to make for interesting strategies and conflicts, but not too complex to make multiplayer impossible.
> Is EUIII any better than the fourth one
I can confirm that EUIII is better than the EUIV base game. Whether or not EUIV with the $200 of additional DLC is better than EUIII is something I haven't tried to discover.
EUIII is loads better than IV. Play with Misc mod.
I still have my old Civ saved games from when we used to do LAN parties with my friends back in high school. Those were good times, I remember one of my friends had a major crush on one of the female leaders.
Normally I like to do a campaign with the EUA trying recovery from civil war and killing the others powers.
They're pretty much all features that don't really enhance the game enough to justify paying for them, or they fix things that shouldn't have been broken to being with, so I'll take that as a yes.
I'll do that, thanks for the rec. That's a specific mod, yes? Not just "miscellaneous mods"?
I wish I was able to experience LAN parties and such, they seem like they would have been really fun. I was born too late unfortunately.
>fucked up spoiler
Yeah, I think it's a collection of good mods, but it makes it a full game. Like any other Paradox game, it's not finished and you need mods to make it good.
I still do LAN parties with friends to this day, it's never too late.
If you're still doing /r/'s I was wondering if I could /r/ Punch Mind Happiness
I don't know if the stranger part is lan party or friends.
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I thought I was too late as well, but since you are my /r/ is Chou Chou-San by Haruomi Hosono.
Ironically I gained these friends by playing video games, and later they became IRL friends since we live in the same city, who would've guessed.
I miss this show.
/r/ Timothy Rap
Forgot to upload the file, fuck.
Too late. I'm downloading the album in FLAC.
Alright fags, I've officially switched from tea to alcohol. On that note,
what are we drinking tonight!?
Usual gin and tonic for me.
You don't buy Gordons?
I just finished my last beer. So I'll be having milk from here on out.
Due to various circumstances, I'm not the one who usually buys the alcohol in my place of residence. If I had a choice it'd be beefeater, not that I've tried to many different kinds though.
Tea. I'm way too tired to risk drinking today.
Funnily enough I was gonna upload the original flac file but it was 20mb so I had to convert it to mp3 in foobar.
It's my university's homecoming this weekend, so I might be the only grad student in my research group who's currently sober.
Beer until I run out then whiskey.
Underage drinking is ille-
Oh wait never mind it's just an alcoholic lolibaba.
Pour one for our favorite oni! What are you drinking tonight?
Sapporo and switching to sake.
Imagine drinking the beer that had just flowed past her mucky toes.
That sounds delightful
Timothy is all torso, baby.
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WHY DO I ALWAYS MISS JIBUN WO
EVERY FUCKING TIME
I play it after Boogie Back, anon.
Well good to know. I won't miss it next time. I step away to make another drink and this happens. Next time I'll be on guard
Yeah, next time you'll just miss both songs.
Hey fuck you buddy even if it means I'll miss some other shit I won't miss jibun wo
I used to hate the kinds of people who'd do the caramelldansen in public but in retrospect they're 1000x better than the ironic weeb normalfaggots of today.
You're starting to get it.
I wonder what kind place exist ironic weeaboos.
DU KANNST ES TUN
AUF SAILOR MOON
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People are still getting used to your schedule, it seems, miracleanon. W-will there be synthwave tonight, I wonder.
>Theres a stream tonight
Oh I totally forgot. Hi everyone. Sorry for being late.
Make yourself at home, anon!
I hope south american anon is doing okay.
We're at the climax now, so let me know if you have any /r/s.
Do you have any more aqours planned later tonight?
He is from Argentina, so he will be ok.
Feels like this stream has been especially comfy tonight. Or maybe the thread has been slower? It's an odd feeling.
So the jason idol block will begin?
If you want them I can squeeze them in. I didn't get to play much of their music earlier.
The Mortal Kombat should be the Real Olympic Entry song.
Test your might!
Don't to speed up the things, but I always thinked that was climax of the stream.
mganon always is killing it with his streams.
Actually, I want to sneak this in:
/r/ Persecution of the Masses, if you happen to have any of the Shin Godzilla OST
His streams always feel special to me. I love KFist and Torpedo but something about miracleanon just makes me giddy. It's his enthusiasm, I think.
Is a Youtube rip okay?
Does seem a bit slower. I know I haven't been posting as much as usual. That does't mean it's been any less enjoyable though.
I might actually end up getting it as some point.
Oh would you look at the time. Post your waifu faggots!
phone broke so you are all delivered from me posting shitty art.
Had to go buy an alarm clock like a fucking caveman though.
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Yep. It's fine like this. There are days when I just want to kick back a little too, even on r/a/dio.
You knew this was coming.
I'm glad people are enjoying.
>Not letting the roosters wake him up.
I hope are nearly of train roll.
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>Needing an alarm clock
>Your waifu doesn't wake you up
Come on Sanaefag
Anon is my waifu.
Don't worry about that. I have a perfect spot for it if you want me to go full Kamen Joshi.
The Boogie Back block is usually the climax from how I see it, but I always make things varied.
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You have no idea how bad I want chickens again. Though we are on the other end of starting chickens. It's in the mid 40's right now very comfy though.
Anons are 3D so we can be waifus.
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Listen we like to sleep in.
You can always try to get cold-hardy variants like russian orlofs, they do better in the cold but they're hard to find. They look pretty has well.
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Huh, you raise chickens? I didn't expect that.
This is an amazing movie, and extremely "Anno." Even if you don't like Godzilla, i.e. you are a huge faggot, I would recommend it.
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I'll never get tired of this song.
Usually the streamers already play anything I want to hear so I haven't requested in several months. Getting a WIXOSS song now is the kind of thing I would request. You did well.
I bet we're watching the fuck out of it during some future Sunday stream.
People give the man too much shit. He's a genius.
It's one of the few horror movies that actually succeeds at doing its job. It's very unsettling.
I just had to take a nap and miss some of the best parts. When is train roll coming up?
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Of course. We only have two more movies left in the Millenium series. I'm planning on putting in the second slot and putting another monster movie in the first slot.
I'm not using his name as an insult, I genuinely enjoy the movie. But you can tell that Anno made it. I think that's a good thing, his style is distinct.
Godzilla's whole redesign is extremely unsettling.
My Aunt owns a dairy farm and I used to live in the country and we raised chickens… until the Jews shut it down and took our house and land. Which is why I owned a house when I was 22.
>working hard to find egg gypsy
Fuck that if I get any birds I'll get some mutt birds in late winter/ early spring for $ 0.25 a bird.
I missed it didn't I?
Station is closed for repairs.
Well I'm anon. Pleasure to make your acquaintance, anon. >>437057 is Kat. She has a couple of games and an OVA. She is a massive genki baka.
That anon has been posting for a bit now.
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Oh well, I can at least enjoy the rest of the stream for a few hours.
Nope. Will come soon or late.
I enjoy you
Fuck, that sounds really comfy. But you're also trying to raise chickens again right? Glad to hear that. Sucks that you lose your home though. Thinking about it tears my heart.
Even cute trains need to rest, anon.
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You're late Akarin.
How are your sister, Akarin?
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Blog relevant to waifuposting Once upon a time in a different age, a 3DPD had an interest for me. Nothing came of it due to circumstances but that 3DPD contacted me out of nowhere today and I was reminded of stuff from back then. I honestly thought "what would have happened if we started seeing each other? what would happen now?" and was reminded of my waifus presence. It was an interesting feeling, the 3DPD would have no chance and I laughed at trying to predict how the 3DPD would react being declined for a vampire princess
Greetings >>437038 a stream doesn't feel complete without talking with you at least once.
She contacted you because she wants to get back together with you. Think of either you're waifu or her. Does you're waifu want you to be happy in the 3D world?
Honestly at this point I can't even conceptualize a relationship with 3DPD.
We were never together to begin with. I have zero desire to see anyone but my waifu.
Your waifu is smiling down upon right now.
Amuro, get in the Gundam.
Just don't go regretting the mistakes of youth. Everyone wants to do it. Bouya dakara sa.
That 3DPD is a physical phenomenon; she is subject to age, degredation, and most importantly, perception. Your impression of her would be based on your imperfect perceptions which would most likely be mistaken. Your waifu is a perfect ideal, which contains all of its necessary information to comprehend it in itself. She is a phenomenon in and of itself, and her existence to you is pure in every way imaginable. She is a pure ideal and will always be with you so long as you live, and with the universe forever. To compare the two is laughable indeed.
3D sees you worthy, which means you're on the path to make yourself worthy of 2D. Keep fighting on anon.
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Good to see you too.
>I have zero desire to see anyone but my waifu.
That's the spirit.
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I never could, personally. Before I abandoned the idea of 3D in general, there was a while where I was confused by the fact I had never had a crush, and began imagining myself in relationships to try and figure out my "type". I realized that I just couldn't picture myself with a 3D girl at all.
Beautifully put. Where's scribe anon?
Don't put your back against the wall!
But you can still post her.
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I just arrived home and safe. Turns out the conductor of the bus took pity of me and let me pass for free. God bless that man.
Today was quite the shitty day but i'm glad i had to experienced it, what an odd feeling. Anyways i'm glad i got in time to see the party's still going hope this one doesn't last 50 hours though
You better roll that /r/ Gachi mganon.
What happened anon? You were lucky to have such a nice conductor!
I'm glad to see you're back safe and sound, anon.
>mistakes of youth
That was an important time to learn lessons of 3DPD and humans in general.
Thats why the last part of the story involved laughing at the 3DPD reaction. I cannot fathom how they would react or even what that kind of relationship looks like. My waifu gave me a dream to aim for and someone to pour all my love into. If she isn't happy and proud its a waste. Giving up all of that feels like drowning to me, and very much describes my youth where I felt like someone just under the surface of the water being carried along by the current and suffocating but unable to pull their head above water and breathe for the first time.
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>I hope this one doesn't last 50 hours though
I hope it does.
How do you purge all thoughts of 3DPD from your mind? I've done it for most I just have one specific case lingering.
Nice posts, Akari~n.
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I give up. I keep getting timeout messages.
Too tired to explain again so basically this >>436853
Post without an image. What did you want to say?
Shit, I got here later too, so I didn't quite see your post. I'm glad you made it home safely. Sorry for not realizing it.
In a romantic sense its quite easy. Your waifu becomes the entirety of your need to love, if Maslow ever wrote such a thing. In a lewd sense, it varies by person. I make a habit of only looking directly into eyes and at the face in general when doing lewd things. Over time the body and mind are retrained on what attractive looks like. I'm at the point where summersluts in slutshorts make me nauseous but I think the final state is total apathy like looking at seagulls
>an anon could have been begging and there is nothing I can do about it
[grows angry in silence]
I swear every single panel of that manga feels like some rewrite you find on exhentai.
Interesting method. I've been exclusively using my onahole only to pictures of my waifu or imagined scenes with her. It works pretty well, and I feel a lot better than if I just jerk off. It's a warm and fuzzy feeling that makes me smile a bit.
That's what happens when Asano spends way too much time on imageboards.
>[grows angry in silence]
No need, anon. Your good intentions are enough to buoy us through hard times.
I'm trying to purge thoughts of one specific 3DPD from years ago. But thank you anon, every night before I fall asleep I say my waifu's name 3-5 times before I drift off, but its not working as fast as I want it to.
I feel her judging me for it and I feel guilty
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I just running in the 90's
One of the best blocks! One of my favorites! I'm excited!
Have you done your duty and eaten a burger in the last week? I had an IHOB burger yesterday. I approve it.
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Don't bully Akarin, anon. Or you will meet her sister.
I will never accept this until they make a pancake burger.
>Land of the brave and home of the free
Its very addicting but also feels impure. Good girls don't use toys, only sluts do.
>one specific 3DPD
This might be lengthy. If you are putting directed effort into forgetting one specific 3DPD there is a reason for it. Perhaps in your subconscious there is something with this 3DPD you are unhappy with. Regret, anxiety, guilt, any, all or none of the above could be it. Focusing on your waifu to try and replace those feelings will not help, instead you will be reminded more of that 3DPD. You have to confront the cause of those thoughts to truly move on. Even if it means doing something unpleasant like writing out what you really feel and burning it or worse talking to the 3DPD, you need to do it. I will not question your love for your waifu, but I will question if your heart can claim to be free of ulterior motives.
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America needs to go on a diet. Walmartianasauruses are a problem.
I don't think anyone has really unironically believed any of that for the past 25 years.
Just 25? I would go back to the cold war
I just made two burgers a few hours ago.
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We make a Cheese Burger that has a piece of deep fried cheese on it and bacon… it's ok. We have another one that is our >deluxe which has sauteed shrooms, onions, bacon, and BBQ sauce it's bretty good.
But it's fun to bully girls who use toys!
I won't talk it out during this stream since this is something to chew on, but thank you very much anon.
Have you met your average ZOGbot? They truly believe it, especially with Trump in office. Yet my state gets worse and worse by the year. Its not a felony to knowingly give someone HIV, you have water rations coming up, and you have to sit here and smile while they screw you. Its a weird form of Hell where people say one thing, do another, and then you smile because they're lying but it makes someone feel good over nothing.
There needs to be more loli rap in this world.
Isn't there an entire genre of loli electronic music?
Someone will try it as an OP/ED song and it will start a trend. Hopefully Asobi Asobase starts a trend for JK metal EDs.
You have a fine taste, anon.
I don't think of it as impure, especially if you're using it with thoughts of your waifu.
Are you thinking of lolicore?
I'm also finding out that a lot of smaller town governments have surprisingly little oversight nad love ot abuse it more than you think. It's like all the federal issues multiplied by like five because the amount of people who actually care can be counted on one hand and none of us have any power to do anything.
I guess that's nothing new to human history, though.
>smaller town governments
Been on the receiving end of that. When the oversight came they discovered a financial shithole and proceeded to solve the problem by doubling taxes for everyone.
>Yet my state gets worse and worse by the year.
Caliphate of khalifor-nyaa?
Arriving just now, damn open world games makes me lazy low energy and lose track of time. Gotta drink lots of coffee, energy up and catch up with the thread, see you guys soon.
I think I know why they do it. Its like religion, if they just believe in this hard enough, say the right things go and vote the how they're told, then their world will get better. Those jobs will come back, people will get off the drugs and be good neighbours, the environment will get better. And the only reason its falling apart is that people don't believe in it enough. Just scratch them right and thats why. Things aren't all doom and gloom its just that things are going to be really mediocre for a long time and a lot of people are going to put their head in the sand about it and make it stay that way longer.
You must understand the essential differences between your waifu and the world around you. Your waifu is an unconditioned existence, meaning that she is not qualified, affected, or reliant upon the ordinary occurings of the world. The physical sentsations you induce using bits of rubber or whatever else have nothing to do with your waifu in and of themselves, but one uses them to induce states that bring them closer to their waifus. There is nothing wrong with their use so long as you have the goal of closeness to your waifu in mind. What >>437173 says is correct. One uses the conditioned stimulus of sexual release to achieve a state which is closer to the unconditioned state that is one's waifu. To put it simply, sexual stimulation is a tool used to foster closeness with one's waifu. No guilt is necessary so long as your goals are in the right place.
Take your time, anon! We'll be waiting for you with open arms! And alcohol.
We're at the climax of the climax. I made this section really long because people like you who missed most of it keep coming in. HIGH ENERGY will continue for a bit.
I've just arrved too, can we still make /r/ ?
I honestly feel that the kinds of people you described are the ones most likely to feel intense despair. When all of your dreams and aspirations seem to have faded into nothingness, all you can do is create an illusion around yourself and others, and live off of that. There is no belief, nor faith. Those things do not exist in their world. Only despair and illusions.
Mganon won't close /r/s until he dies.
I've never before turned away an /r/.
Go wild during my streams.
>I've never before turned away an /r/.
Oh? You want to test that statement?
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No 3 hours of silence, please, Torps.
Dear god, Koma-chan so cute. I don't know if I give her heatpats or bully.
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/r/ Ashita no Joe OP. Plz include
..Where did i heard this song before?
/r/ Asobi Asobase OP and puru puru pururin. You may decide how long the latter goes on.
Go West by Pet Shop Boys.
/r/ Where Da Idols At? DMX vs Idolm@ster
That's why i like you.
Ten i'll take one Excel Saga opening and one Shiny Days
They have faith, its just misplaced. Nothing you can really do but just do your best and hope things don't get worse.
/r/ Song of The Kamikaze Pilots 特攻隊節
If it takes 6 hours to finish one show. And we got 168 hours a week. I just realized that there are no real excuses to not catch up with most shows. Does that mean that most of us are just burned out and don't like anime anymore?
Does that include the time we spend sleeping, doing our other obligations like school, work, etc. and eating?
Maybe. I can't really find anything that I like anymore and drop shows way more often than I did back in the day.
Don't forget the time take do good screenshots and try and fail to make webms.
I will stay until the end of that.
I want to give anon lots of hugs and kisses.
If you're not a NEET you'll probably only have about 6 hours of free time on weekdays.
What only works when we become 2d little girls in the another side.
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No I casually blow through shows when I feel like it. It usually comes down to is the show worth my time. For some reason every month or two I rewatch all of New Game S1.
You are forgetting the time for transport. Before I become a neet i had no free time.
Should I extend it? She's my favorite vocaloid.
For some reason I can only spend 90% of my time with vidya instead of animu. And I would consider myself anything other than an /a/non. But at least I never procrastinate.
There are still random times that I just run through hundreds of episodes in a week though.
>Does that mean most of us are burned out and don't like anime anymore?
Not necessarily. All it means is just you're not in the mood. I believe there is a time, place, and mood for everything, and I don't think anyone is always in the mood for anime. Eventually, you want to take a break, especially as you watch more content, including those of low quality, so you want to make sure your time is worth it. You like anime, so you become more selective with when you want to watch it.
This your decision, but I will need be in bed in fifteen minutes or I will be in troubles.
I like to take it slow, one or two episodes of a show a day. Take my time cause there's no need to rush, watching more than 4 episodes kind of ruins the experience a bit.
Thanks for the stream, miracle.
You are doing a nice job.
I wish all anons have good stream and sweet dreams.
And stay away from 3D world for everything beyond work. There have only pain and agony.
Are you leaving us so soon? fine then, have a good night ばか yellow blue bus.
I have be in a baptism or something like that in few hours. I need do something bring some kind happiness to my parents and go family event is on this kind things. My bad, anon.
I love you, anon.
I didn't plan for this stream to be so long, but I hope you're liking it. We have a few hours left because I'm too fucking high energy holy shit.
Also anime don't have those addicting stinger-type stimulus that many western shit have that we might be subconsciously used to. Most anime feel that they are made to be consumed leisurely, especially SOLs.
I seriously planned this to be shorter than my other streams.
Good night, anon. Sleep tight.
It's no bother. I'm honestly amazed I'm still awake for it.
The night is just beginning, I'd be miffed if it ended too soon. Stream on, mganon, stream on.
Thank whoever /r/d it.
I find myself just refreshing dead threads of shows I watch every ten minutes instead of actually watching anime.
I wish more people posted. Even if you think what you're posting is garbage, please post it.
I regret so much not watching seasonal anime in time for posting with /a/. Especially when I watched everything Cardraptor Sakura to watch the new one with /a/ but then I get stuck in the hospital, at least I have extreme fondle comfy memories of that magical time that is watching old Sakura.
/r/ anything from Sakura
Stupid question, but why some of the songs of the stream sounds like if i were listening straight from an mp3? Is it just me? pls no bully
yeah, some of them have that tinny quality as if they're being played from laptop speakers or something.
I'm streaming at 320 kbps.
You never plan these streams, do you anon?
I remember the iyashikei in this anime being so intense it brought tears to my eyes. Everything about that tight-knit family in the cozy inaka makes me homesick for a place I've known.
I swear I do. I fret about them for days.
I assume because a bunch of them are from YouTube.
Flying witch is one of the comfiest show, its a shame the manga update so slowly
Funny you would say that, Yurucamp did the same thing for me.
Might not be iyashikei, but I felt something similar with Comic Girls.
One day you'll have a stream with a reasonable length. Until then we'll steadily drop like flies as we await the end.
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This is why I love you, miracleanon. You're always so excited and fun. I can only imagine what it's like to have you around physically. Thank you.
/r/ Aikatsu! - Blooming Blooming
That was iyashikei for sure.
It's a type of iyashikei we'll never see again.
Aikatsu is huge and I haven't got into it properly yet. Please supply a link or I won't add it.
It had been a while since I watched something so well made. It genuinely touched my heart. It was lovely.
It felt like tou-san simulation at times. I just wanted to hug Kaosu and dry her tears.
That's all I ask.
I sure as hell don't know best, and somehow that's for the best. Let's share that cigarette some day, anon.
Good nihtly, anon.
Good nihtly, sleep sumg.
Is aikatsu just the idol version of precure?
Pretty much, but it's precure on the best seasons.
I hope that anon is happy. I added a Kamen Joshi block.
Gomen. But not really. I love them too much not to give them a corner. Underground Idols deserve to be recognized.
I have to sleep now. Thanks for the genki stream mganon. Have a nice night everyone.
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A bit late, but time to pop open that red ale.
I wish only the smuggest of dreams, and snuggest of sleep for you anon. Because you deserve it. Yellow Blue Bus, anon.
Good night anon. Sleep tight.
With pleasure, anon!
Is this track kamen joshi?
Thanks for listening and Bye'cha. I live by the Otome no Policy, so sorry about keeping my upbeat idols around for so long. Like other anons have said, I plan to kill you with their love.
It's Armor Girls, a sub-unit of Kamen Joshi. These girls are a 1/3 of Kamen Joshi.
KISS ME HOLD ME MAKE ME CRAZY
Well if you say so anon. But are you sure you want to do this right here, right now?~
Good night, anon! Yellow blue bus!
Well, if you don't want to…
I'm tapping out. Thanks for the stream MGAnon until next time have fun everyone.
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>They keep dropping out
It's just, there are little girls here anon. We shouldn't do this in front of children~
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Yellow blue bus sanaefag!
C'est la vie, anon. Lose out on the end of one stream, live long enough to see the next.
Good night, sleep tight.
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I'm still here, miracleanon! I won't be going anywhere anytime soon. Maybe everyone just feels more tired than usual? Last week was kind of nuts and we went all out.
It's been 5 hours man.
I'm here. I'm just listening and not really posting.
I'll be here til the end anon.
It's a miracleanon stream. He's our resident marathonist. And our No. 1 NEET!
Would we even notice if you left?
I came in late but i'll stay until the end.
I-I hope you've liked my Underground Idols. I know they're a little bit different than usual idols and they don't have as good studio quality as the others, but they always sing with the utmost passion.
Have you ever been in one my my streams? I made this on the shorter side.
How long are you willing to stay up?
I-I'm sorry, I couldn't help it anon, you're just too easy to bully. You know I love you, don't you?
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I'd say this was a learning experience. Plenty of singers and idols I've never heard of not that I'm much of an idol person. It was fun and plenty of them are quite good! Be proud of your picks!
Well, I still have 10 volumes of Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle to go at least
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Going to casually /r/ this. Funny story, I was trying to legitimately purchase this earlier today, but I'm unable to because I live in Cuckada. Or at least, I'm unable to through the normal methods. How do you folks get your higher-quality when you can't find them on nyaa or similar sites?
ARE YOU FOLLOWING TH E OTOME NO POLICY, EVERYONE?
Stop by the Idol thread sometime. I post there regularly.
I'm just waiting for my /r/'s to come up before I even consider leaving. I haven't heard any yet, I'm starting to worry you didn't see them.
Good /r/s get played early.
I killed my stream list a while back on accident. What was the /r/?
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I might just do that, friend!
Reflection is probably the only recent Nanoha thing that was actually good. Detonation soon.
Either or both, whenever they'd fit best, at your convenience.
Looking forward to that. Wish it wasn't split in two movies, but I enjoyed Reflection.
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I still got trauma from how shit Strikers was. I'm very pleased that Reflection had some focus instead of going off on 5 different subplots that add nothing to the experience.
That's because it's about Fate and Nanoha (and Hayate and the knights), i.e. what everyone watches the series for.
I actually only watched a single episode of Strikers. Not even the first episode got me hooked. Something about it felt off. Like it was supposed to be a different series outside of Nanoha. I got a similar feeling when i first booted up Metal Gear Solid 5. I guess I should be glad I never watched it through to the end.
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>this shit again
I don't actually mind.
It's too bad Star Trek is so unbelievably pozzed.
I wonder if mganon is planning on Infinite Eight'ing us again.
And yet it sold the best out of all the Nanoha shows. Damn Jap shit taste.
It's the opposite of Starship Troopers.
Well, I cannot deny that adult Fate and Nanoha may have been a reason for its success.
I'm seriously considering it right now.
Your judgement was correct, it had maybe 1-2 good scenes where Nanoha goes nuclear but other than that it was terribly unfocused and at the end they made it as if nothing had happened. It had some severely bizarre moments like at the end they reveal that the whole TSAB is controlled by some immortal illuminati council who lives as brains, only to resolve by killing them off a few episodes later with no repercussions happening.
It's like the author just has no clue on what to do with Nanoha at all.
I can't remember, did I play this? Please answer.
You are kidding me. What the fuck?
The parts with adult Nanoha and Fate were easily the best parts. They are too cute together.
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Since I mentioned Metal Gear, your summary makes me feel like the writers played those games a little too much. I'm surprised there's no character that quadruple crosses everybody.
Fish Fight was a big meme back in the day.
Yes you did. I also realized what others meant when they talked about a "tinny" effect with earlier songs.
Hello there, I'm finally home and ready for some r/a/dio!
How has been everyone's night been so far?
ARE YOU DOING THE DANCE??
It was from Youtube because that's what you linked me.
It's been a lazy night for me, but it's fine. Nothing wrong with slowing down the pace, and I kinda needed it.
Pretty relaxing. I've been playing Civil War games, listening to the stream, and reading Touhou doujins (non-H).
Nah man, I know. Sorry I couldn't get you a higher quality rip. Thanks for playing it though.
About a 1/5 dowm a bottle of vodka and eating pretzel sticks.
>Hayate and the knights
The knights can go to hell. What are they anyways? Magical constructs? Golems? Why should I care about things that are basically as human as the shovel I use to clear snow from my driveway? If they are not humans then what are they based on? If they are not living beings then how come they have linker cores? Never explained. The whole book of darkness arc also felt like they just pulled bullshit from their ass to move the plot forwards. Nice character designs though.
I just got in, too. Hello!
Planning on reading some more Vampire Hunter D LNs and listening to the stream with all of you.
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It's me, so you have time to enjoy it.
Weren't they reincarnations or something? Kinda like heroic spirits in the Nasu universe. As long as Hayate is around, they'll exist, in a technically.
>Why should I care about things that are basically as human as the shovel I use to clear snow from my driveway?
You'll never make a robot happy with words like this, anon.
Would I make you happy if I gave you a hug?
Waiting for the end of the stream so he can give us 3 hours of silence.
Lying in a pool of his own vomit just outside his bedroom, I imagine.
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He finally had to bite the bullet and work for the Navy. Rip.
All that is said is that they are part of a program created by the book of darkness in order to defend itself. The book just does everything and has multiple independent systems and programs and can do whatever the plot needs it to do with no need for any sort of explanation. It's stupid and I hate it.
Well, it's not quite like a visual novel where they can use text to explain the intricacies of whatever system it is. I-I liked A's.
Come over here you cutie.
No you silly goose
Still the best Love Live song.
It's ok. Nanoha's strongest points has always been aesthetics and character interactions. Not plot unfortunately. Incidentally the strikers sequel was so shit that the author cancelled it.
Aqours can only dream to best this song.
Time to stop drinking I just bumped my head in the wall hard and didn't feel anything.
Snow Halation is a song every wota party has. I've ended a great night on it so many times.
The night is far from over.
Your waifu protects you against any and all injuries sustained in your drunken stupor. But only while you remain drunk.
Yeah but I can't afford to dent the walls. She might stop the pain but liver damage I'm not sure about.
On the bright side, if you hit your head hard enough you won't have to worry about either of those things!
Would I go to Gensokyo?
aye aey cptnai
IMA GA SAIKOU
Yes. Unless you are a practitioner of the vilest heresy, your waifu will take you gently by the hand to Gensokyo.
How did being shitfaced make me remember my Nihongo runes perfectly?
Wait, so there was supposed to be even more Stikers? I know there are those spinoffs with Nanoha's kid and all.
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Guys, how do I have wholesome dream about my waifu? Every night my dreams are always suffering in some way.
Look up Nanoha FORCE.
Live a wholesome life and consume wholesome things anon. Everything impure in your life must be purged.
You must first fill your head with wholesome thoughts about your waifu.
I-I love you too
I-I love you as well.
Anyone watch this video? Cowardly Montblanc and Mozaic Role is what made me a hard core GUMI fan.
I love you too, anon.
Right, that's what I was thinking of. I might just stick with the loli Nanoha timeline.
Live a wholesome life and consume wholesome things anon. Everything impure in your life must be purged.
What if your waifu has impure fantasies.
>your waifu has impure fantasies
Purge them with your dick
Then your waifu is lewd and will be punished for it in due time. Always be good, and your waifu will be good too. Good things, all day every day. Nice things all day every day. Pure things all day every day.
I feel like I could combine both of these replies.
Don't try to induce them, let them happen by chance. Is better that way due to the surprise factor.
She's there having your dreams with you. Work out and become a better person and she'll sleep more comfy with you.
Write down what you want to dream about. Focus on senses and not just visual things. Start off with simple things or familiar places. Refer back to it right before you go to sleep. If your nightmares are persisting, maybe imagine your waifu coming to help you out through them.
Sometimes persistent nightmares are from other underlying issues. So maybe work on those, too.
>Sometimes persistent nightmares are from other underlying issues
I really can't imagine any reasons in my life as to why I would have to go through the exercise of trying to solve a gruesome murder in my nightmares in which the children were forcibly ed to the parents and then the parents were cut into pieces and left on the floor of a shower. Why is my mind torturing me? Why do I have to see things like that when I sleep? Please hlep.
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Is this the comfy block?
mganon's streams are certified 100% comfy, guaranteed or your money back.
Will mganon pay for my bandwidth costs if I'm uncomfortable during the stream?
My internet crapped out on itself when I posted this. Sorry.
But do you watch stuff that has gruesome shit like it in it? If you're filling your head with edgey shit everyday of course your dreams are gonna reflect that. I really think most people underestimate the effect the media they consumer has on their psyche.
It's okay, but only because I love you.
If you file the necessary forms, yes. Although, you may have to wait a brief period (average 3-74 weeks) for payments to be fulfilled.
But the thing is that I'm not. There's no correlation between the media I consume and my nightmares. I'm not into shit like thag which makes it both more baffling and more painful to experience.
Well that shit got into your head somehow. The problem is once it's in it's often impossible to get out. You can only suppress it with nicer stuff. Personally I'd recommend a strong course of moeshit anime everyday.
I planned this block for at least 2.5 hours ago.
Are you excited for it, anon!
I've concluded that I'm being haunted or tormented by something. This shit has been going on for years. Every time I dream I either witness something horrifying, experience a mind fuck like living as a schizophrenic or I'm set up to care about someone in the dream only to lose them. I don't even want to go to sleep anymore because of how bad it is.
I LOVE YOU.
YOU'RE MY WAIFU.
It's as if God decided the world was ready for a Miracle.
I know you are my miracle.
Sounds like a lot of anxiety. Are you a worrier by chance, anon? My impression of that nightmare is that you're finding yourself stuck in situations where bad things happen to innocent people. If you're by chance a worrier, some of that fixation and worry might find an outlet in your dreams. If you don't work out things consciously, they tend to bubble up in dreams. This isn't discounting malevolent entities influencing things. But normally they're already attracted to people with issues.
I love her so much what do I do?
I should stream more of her music next time.
>Miracleanon declares his love
>New Haruhi source material announced
What have you done?
Take your relationship to the next level.
I would not mind two hours of haruhi music if it made you happy.
I wish that the stream will never end.
So all of these marathon streams were really a clever attempt to gather enough energy to manifest new source material? I'm okay with this.
You guys give me too many compliments. I'm just being my own
All our bully energy goes to Torpedo, and half of our rabu rabu energy goes to you, dearest mganon.
And your self is wonderful. Seriously. You have no idea how precious and beautiful you are. At least to me. You've made my Saturdays much brighter than they used to be. Thank you.
By the way, thanks for playing my two /r/'s earlier, you're a real swell fellow.
Now that I think about it should I just finish this whole bottle of vodka before the nights over or until the stream ends? There's like a good 2/5 left in the bottle and I've drank 1/2 of it tonight, the rest was drank earlier and elsewhere.
You don't want to wish that. I did that once.
I suppose so. It's just that I feel like I'm being tormented because of how these dreams end up being both horrifying and made up. To expand on the one I had from last night. I was investigating the murder within the house. My self in the dream, bestowed with the infinite wisdom of a proper investigator, concluded that the fact that the bread knife was missing from the kitchen meant that the bread knife must've been the murder weapon. The conclusion reached later in the investigation was that the fucking cat did it. Thinking back in the dream there was a neighbor who was obviously the real murderer. She tried to get into the crime scene pretending to be a journalist with a camera. And obviously a fucking bread knife cannot cut people. The fact that I have to witness the excruciating detail that my mind constructs the crime scene with in combination with the fact that I always play the part of the idiot (and am not even conscious of my own idiocy until I wake up) makes me feel more like I'm being made fun of than anything else.
Save it for next stream.
Depends on whether or not you have anything to do tomorrow. If you've got business, save it for next week. If not, chug it now so you don't forget to do it later.
NEW FUCKING HARUHI I'M SO EXCITE
WHAT IF THE PROPHECY GETS FULFILLED? WHAT IF WE GET S3?
Don't be silly. S3's don't exist.
The true Haruhiist never stopped believing.
Careful not to get a monkey's paw. But I hope it's good.
What if it's shit?
My waifu will make it better.
Christ anon, that sounds rough. I'm no dream specialist or anything, but you really ought to find parallels to those feelings in your real life. Particularly how you mention making really dumb decisions and only realizing after you wake up. The first thing I think of is that you could be regretting some decision you made in the past, or have done some other thing that makes you feel as though you are an idiot. Like I said I'm no specialist but it's something that immediately pops out at me.
Well thank you for your encouragement and reading my autistic blogposts. I'm still confused as to the cause because I don't really have anything like strong regrets or pervasive anxieties. Hopefully one of these days it'll stop or I'll just go to Gensokyo.
Your reaction is natural and normal. Reason and logic don't really hold up in dreams. So expecting that you'd be able to exercise them to the same extent that you would in real life isn't a good burden to put on yourself. Still pretty convinced a lot of this is underlying anxiety and worry. I mostly concur with >>437453 about this. That being said, vivid dreams also usually indicate a good imagination. Set aside some time to imagine yourself in powerful situations. Make them real. Make them interesting and personal to you. Have dynamic action in them. Be larger than life. Really put your imagination to work, figure out what the lighting is. Know what things smell and feel and taste like. Be meticulous. You might not get anywhere at first with your dreams, but give this exercise some time. The more your imagination is trained to see you as powerful, the better chance you stand in dreams. Attack this from both angles by resolving things in real life and priming your imagination in ways that counteract this stuff.
5am and gotta sleep, you win this time again miracle.
Please anon do stay safe out there, in the 3D world. See you all next time.
Bye'cha and good night. I'm PST master race, so it's easier for me to go longer.
Before you go, at least let me know:
CAN YOU FEEL
I'm a neet so I can get away with drinking more tonight. In all honesty I'm a parasite who should contribute more, and until I do if someone killed me, the person who kills me might do the world a favor.
Goodnight, Anon. Sleep snug. Sleep smug.
Good night, anon. Sleep tight.
Good night anon. I hope you a wonderful time in the week we are apart.
CAN YOU FEEL?
If you can, you're no parasite. Use that feeling.
Sleep snug, smug.
Good night anon, thank you for joining us this fine evening.
The only other thing I will say is DO NOT DESPAIR. Even if it takes a long time, you must have hope that you can resolve this issue. If you go to bed one night and find that the issue isn't resolved, then pick yourself up again and carry on. I find from personal experience that neuroses of the mind become more powerful if you dwell on them. If you're in it for the long haul, don't get bogged down by every "defeat," renew your hope in the morning and keep going. Good luck anon, all the best to you.
>do the world a favor
Your hypothetical murderer would be depriving us of a valued anon, anon! We would never be able to forgive such a crime, and are fully prepared to unleash our autistic rage upon those who dare to hurt our own!
That feeling is what makes me feel like a parasite. I'm out of place I should be anywhere else but where I am. I'm the weakest of my siblings the last to leave home as a middle child. I can't even get a job everywhere just looks at me and chucks my app in the trash.
NHK ost is just so great. It captures the feel of the NEET life perfectly.
It's full of people responsible for Denpa.
I know that feel anon. I'm an oldest sibling and the least accomplished. I have nothing to show for all my years here and no form of income. Take solace in the fact that one day it'll all end.
The whole soundtrack is top tier comfy to me. Not just because it's like that generally, but it's also nostalgic to me.
Shall we wipe mushrooms off the face of the earth, anon?
As long as my brothers are there, I'll be at their side.
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Throw them in the hotto potto.
Find a job. Maybe even join the military. But no matter what, never forget you're one of us. You're part of the tribe. Petty shit like your siblings leaving home before you doesn't matter. You can FEEL.
>one day it'll all end
>he doesn't know that this is all just an impossibly complex simulation for the entertainment of cosmic horrors
When we say you're here forever, we mean forever
Reminder that the author of NHK wasted all his money and reverted back to being a depressed NEET even after writing a popular novel about pulling yourself out of it.
Maybe if I wind up an in an alcohol induced death here then my family will discover the biggest influences on my life being imageboard between here and elsewhere and wonder where and what went wrong. Then they'll look through my hard drive and see over 100GB of anti-semitism and 6 terabytes of anime reaction pictures. Then all the odes to my waifu. Maybe they'll read through my pdfs, and be disturbed. I wonder if they'd play my webm folder at the funeral parlor, so me nephews and nieces could see my waifu and Hitler telling them to be positive. and never despair. And that Mel Giboson was right. And that you should e a good person. And I am beyond drunk. My waifu is probably screaming at me in my mind but I'm pretty sure she has taken over my conscience and is governing my morals, but this power seems most powerful when sober.
I've been Hitori Bocchi for so long.
Welcome back, friend. My friend, the lonliness.
>about pulling yourself out of it.
I take it you didn't read the novel.
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>implying they wouldn't just sell your computer and hard drives and some random fucker will see your collectiok for maybe a bit before he erases it all for his shitty taste in video games and malware
I'd say your waifu is trying to embrace you and tell you to give yourself some rest, anon. She will never abandon you. She understands why you do what you do.
That would the ultimate joke wouldn't it? Not even to know where things went wrong, just a set of open tabs on a computer they have no idea how to use.
Oh shit, Reimufag isn't here to enjoy Haru Ya Koi.
It's one of the most profound novels of our time for a reason.
Sleep tight, Aniki.
Sleep tight, Aniki.
What you leave behind is evidence that you loved. You found likeminded people. You felt inspired enough to create. You developed your own idea of what a good person was. If they wonder what went wrong, it is because how you did each of those things was in a manner they didn't understand. There are strong enough kinds of love so that they can exist even when understanding isn't there, though. Don't sweat it so much.
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Come here. You need a fucking hug.
Shove their shit back in their face.
I guess I have no excuse to not go through this.
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But if I leave them embarrassed it just makes problems for them. Would they even want to bury me? They would but would I put second thoughts in them as to even wanting to call me family? I want to do the right things in life and no one knows that I even like anime I mean sure there is speculation, but I keep things under covers for reasons. I'd hate to cause problems for people if I die. What a terrible thing for my problems to be over but give other people problems. I'd never want to do that I feel like enough of a burden at this point that I can't see a good future and I don't see a good exit. If I give grief on my way out its selfish and wrong. I wouldn't do that to family, thats wrong.
It's about time for me to turn in. Good night, anons. Thanks for the stream, mganon. See you all tomorrow, next week, whenever we meet again.
Good night anon. Love you.
Good night, dearest anon. May you be blessed with the sweetest dreams tonight, and good health for the upcoming week.
Good night anon.
I think it's about time for me to turn in as well.
Good night. I hope you liked my stream and thanks for staying this long.
You're giving them both too much credit and consideration. 99% of people don't actually care how their actions really affect others, only how it affects their image and perception of themself. These people aren't worth your kindness even if they are related to you by blood (which barely even means anything at the end of the day).
I''ll be here to the end. I always tell myself I will but I never do, tonight is the change tell me when you're done and I'll be.
Good night anon. Sleep smug!
Not every member of my family does things I understand. I still love them. They've made life choices that oppose everything I've ever believed is right. But that's okay. They're family. Family is different from every other relation there is, and it takes a lot of time to really feel that out instead of just understand it. The worries you have are things you can do stuff about. Do your best and don't give up! Believe not just in your own love, but in the love of others.
I haven't seen the last episode yet.
Good night. Come get your good night hug before bed.
O-okay, but just this once
This whole thread needs a hug.
I need a hug.
I'm glad you can still agonize over how your death will affect your family. You can still feel, as they say. Even if you can't find value in your accomplishments, that you have a kind heart still has it's worth. I can't save you, at least not yet, nor can I provide you with advice on how to improve your current situation. But I hope you can have enough patience to see a future we can all share.
Do you promise not to touch my butt this time?
Then come over here anon. I want to hug you tight.
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So who's staying up? Should I end this already?
But isn't it selfish, what if on some level they think like me, they've been nice to me. I should consider them that far.
I always strive to understand family, they deserve that. Even if I disagree, I must understand and be able to make a decision from there. Doing what's right is important. What I want is irrelevant in that process, what's right is important.
I'm probably just going to be really hungover, but I think if I die this moment what will I do to those around me? I don't want to hurt family, and thats who would be hurt.I should drink less, but tonight I can''t stop.
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If I did would you believe me?
Please no I'm enjoying the stream.
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Do what you like. I've been awake for so long I can't even tell if I'm tired or not.
We can't give up until we reach Antartica
W-what are you saying anon? You've n-never lied to me before.
Everyone who's planning on sleeping tonight get to bed. Thank you for loving the idols I've shared and loving each other. I love you all. Good night.
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You're a good person. You care about your family even if the entirety of your self isn't revealed to them. And I believe that what you've experienced is true, genuine pain. You've been in a lot of pain, a lot of hopelessness, all your life, and your morality tells you that's not right. That there is more to life than this. So as much as you tell yourself that there is no way out, you don't want anybody else to feel the pain you feel, the same hopelessness as you. That is quite the admirable thing. At the same time, don't blame yourself for idealizing this path you're thinking of. Honestly, life is a gigantic pain in the ass. We're fed innocuous delusions of a great future that never comes, that things will get better, that we're all amazing, but none of that ever happens, and our family is usually too exhausted about this painful existence to try and help themselves and each other. Life is hard. Maybe even too hard and it might not be worth it. You got all these chips, but if the odds are too much against you, you can't help but wonder if this 1% of hope they speak of is even worth it. Especially when the 99% will always be looming over you.
>But isn't it selfish, what if on some level they think like me, they've been nice to me. I should consider them that far.
Well it's certainly possible, just not plausible. Have they done anything for you out of altruism or self-sacrificing love rather than familial duty or to elevate their own perception of their self? I doubt it. And I doubt they'd ever be willing to do the things for you that you are willing to do for them. They simply are on a lower level of existence than you. Like animals.
Doing what's right is important. But doing what's right isn't like snapping your fingers. Is the agony you put yourself through helping you do what is right? If it's not, then the guilt and agony are actually what you're picking over doing what is right. Learn to accept that change is a process and not instantaneous. Track your progress. You're a good person, anon.
Some things can't be helped. It's just because I love you too much not to want to feel you all over.
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I think I'll take you up on that. Good night everyone and thanks for the stream mganon.
But a-anon, I don't know if I c-can keep quiet. You make me feel t-to good.
It's okay. It's just us here. I'll be gentle.
I don't know, before I had hopes of just signing up with some group so I can fight and be shot so they can at least say their son died with honor, and they could feel some pride. It wouldn't hurt them as much. But I have nothing to go forward with in life. Can't fight in a foreign war, probably won't live to see one at home.
They did, they put themselves through hungry nights and misery for me and my siblings. Thats how we are, I should be capable of doing the same for them and others. If you can't repay kindness to one spread kindness to others. Thats what's right in this world, no matter who it is.
Probably, I'm just drunk and talking to much. I can't even type properly. Its good to get this off my chest though. Its a feeling of debt I can't repay.
Its getting harder to drunkpost and keep my spelling and grammar in check so I apologize for being atrocious on the eyes.
Good night, anon. Smug sleep and what not, see you next week, or whenever the next stream is!
I'll now retire from this den of autism and intoxication. It's been another good night with you all. To the anons in this thread dealing with rough shit, while I don't have any smooth words that will make you feel better, know that I genuinely wish you all the very best. Good night.
Wha-what are you talking about? Our f-friends are in the next room! They'll hear everythi- ahn~
Good night, anon.
Good nightt anon, sleep tight and may good things follow your way.
This is the only Triple-Q song I really like.
The truth of an anonymous heart will never be ugly to anonymous eyes Unless you think you have a waifu harem
Drunk words are sober thoughts. Get it all out when you're able. Be good to yourself so you can be good to others, anon. Do right by yourself so you can do right by others. I believe in you!
Maybe I'll go to a frozen land and carve a statue to my waifu hold her in my embrace and be frozen in ice so scholars and archaeologists can find a lone anon hugging his waifu, an idol of judgement 400000 years in the fuutre. That would be fitting.
>They did, they put themselves through hungry nights and misery for me and my siblings.
They did that because you're their child and they felt a responsibility to do so. Because they thought they wouldn't be able to justify to themselves abandoning their own children. It was not out of any love for you as a person. You have a responsibility to repay their familial responsibility but nothing more. Your good hearted nature and selfless love will always be not understood and trampled over by them. I can't help but feel anger whenever I see altruistic and loving people like you who will never have the feeling they have for others reciprocated back to them or even understood on a fundamental level.
There there. Just pretend they aren't here. For you I'm the only person here just like how for me you're the only one.
I had CPS for all the wrong reasons in my childhood, they fought for us. At a lot of cost, we lost our home, we had to move, we were poor for years. If they were selfish they wouldn't have done that. To this day it was over my dumb ass everything happened.
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You have your own internal fights. Life is a struggle. Constantly. Even the simplest decisions, from your perception, can seem almost insurmountable. Judging ourselves in comparison to others is a self-made trap. You fight your own fights, and your personal fights are important to you, anon. They matter to you, and they're what keep you up. No one can take that away. I'm not sure if this makes sense. I've been half drunk this past hour and i'm just now drinking some coffee to dissipate it. I just couldn't help but feel like your words resonate with my situation.
This is the lower half of the bottle talking so I'm probably thinking too much about things. I'm a catalyst for bad things to happen, I'm always at the center of something bad without making it happen. I overreact, or cause an overreaction.
Maybe I'm just destined to be a problem.
It makes sense, to me at least. I took the Dragon Quest III personality test once and it told me I was vain because I kept comparing myself to others, and that I should just worry about my own personal journey.
I'm drinking more.
To everyone who fucking feels a thing. To all the people living in filthy, beautiful cities.
Kanpai. Let's be the mop this world deserves.
Waifus are asleep. Let's talk man.
MGanon just has real good taste for good tunes
And tell me, who exactly explained the circumstances surrounding what happened? Are you sure you know the whole story? It was a long time ago after all. Additionally, most kids, even those in families stricken with poverty, don't get given up for adoption. Why do you think that is? Love? It isn't. The real reasons are things like tax deductions, goverment relief programs and a simple belief among parents that giving up their children is irresponsible (which ties into self-perception and perception by others). I used to think like you, once upon a time. It wasn't until I found out the full story that I realized my parents were responsible for the hell I went through and could've done something about it but didn't because they didn't want others to think badly of them. You're clinging on to a desperate belief that your family is actually returning the feelings you feel for them to you when in all liklihood they probably can't even conceptualize your feelings for them completely, let alone return them.
Perfectly honest anon, I've had too much kampai.
That was the Ideon ED. I recommend watching it.
No, you're not destined to be a problem. I think I can see why your words resonate with me so much. You talk like the kind of person who has seen so many bad things, you've lost the ammunition you thought you could use to at least defend yourself and keep your integrity. You feel exhausted. And whenever more of those things happen around you, you tell yourself 'I should do something', but you don't, because you feel so tired and exhausted. Those things cause you to feel the very things you described: you overreact. It's a reaction to the fears that seem to have been confirmed by the events of your life long ago and they keep repeating themselves. But you can feel. You know things could be better. And that's why you don't just accept things as they are. That's why you overreact. To me, you're desperately clinging to that last bit of hope before it's gone. You're not a catalyst for bad things. It's just that when bad things happen around you, you are so sick of them, so completely tired, that you just want to break free. It's a strange form of anxiety. You don't want that flicker of hope to go away, your foundations. But goddamn it feels like everyone is trying to take it away. You're trying to defend yourself. That I can at least tell you as much. You're not just living. At your state, you're surviving. But you're not a catalyst. You're simply living life the way that allows you to survive.
Oh boy would you look at the time.
You're drinking with us. Wheether you're lifting a glass to your mouth dousn't matter.
Whether you actually inhale that cigarette dousn't matter. We're sharing that smoke.
Have you listened to the full album yet?
They fought like Hell out of duty anon. I've been filled in on the full story, and its just a matter of irresponsibility and anger.
>conceptualize your feelings for them completely
They do, otherwise I wouldn't mind getting up at 1am to drive someone to the hospital. If they didn't care they would have kicked me out a long time ago. I didn't go through any real hell because of them.
>real reasons are things like tax deductions
We can't into accounting and banking. Every attempt we have at business fails miserably.We're farm folk, all my grandparents were farmers, just my parents tried to break from that tradition. I want to go to the woods. I don't care if it kills me at this point. If I freeze to death in the tree hollow it'd be better than wageslaving in the city. I don't know why I feel this way. Maybe I'll go to a park and think of what the radio is like. Just sit out this christmas in the snow. As I go numb I can imagine a touch in the emptiness it'll walk me away somewhere else.
I've seen bad things. But I haven't had them happen to me. So I feel like a faggot. I should be better than this. I should be stronger. I should be better.
In a comfortable state, a state I don't deserve. Maybe this app will go through. I need a job, just something to feel like I'm moving forward.
Life isn't all abut being happy. And that's why life isn't all about being sad.
Keep going, Caraline.
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I've seen too many people I care about die.
Well, it looks like this is my stop anons. I hope to see you guys soon. I love you all.
Nevermind. I just had some soundcloud song randomly playing while I wasn't paying attention. So I was hearing abomination of dopee time + Hiromi Iwasaki - Street dancer.
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Good night. I wish I could see you off with a smile. Know I love you and don't fucking die. I'm tired of people dying.
Good night. Aishiteru~
No one is dying tonight anon. Just drunk and sad, for no other reason than liquor demanded honesty.
Mecha anime where people keep dying, or this moment in Macross when the Earth gets genocided means so much more to me now.
I sang this song at karaoke with a true fucking fan at a con. I'll never forget that night.
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>I should be better than this. I should be stronger. I should be better.
Stop right there, anon. I know I'm coming off as quite direct towards you, but that kind of language will only hurt you instead of helping you move forward. Your mind works in strange ways when you affirm yourself like this. The more you repeat this to yourself, the more you'll be paralyzed. It's like self-defeat. Discarding your current self in favor of a more favorable version that exists based on yours and others' expectations. I'm not going to say you shouldn't strive to be better, but don't let these thoughts dominate you. They are not the totality of your being. They shift your focus. The important thing, from what I see, is to focus on what you can do at this moment, instead of setting grand, almost ephemeral "goals" to yourself. I'm just speaking from experience here, but the bottom line is, don't say these things to yourself. Your conflicts are real. They are absolutely real. They are your own conflicts and they are what drive you. Don't demean them. Don't devalue them. It's your own fight. You're not a faggot. A faggot would run away from their inner turmoils and fall for some bullshit cult or ideology, maybe dye their hairs a frilly color and go "FUCK DRUMPF XD" on social media as if it means anything. But you want to face them. You wouldn't be making these posts if you weren't giving at least some glances at your conflicts. They are real. They are part of you. So don't demean them. Don't demean yourself.
Macross is just so beatiful
Ever since that night, I knew. Like Anno said, politics and age gaps mean nothing for otaku. We're a fucking tribe until the end. Let's face it together.
Fuck your petty shit. Someone needs to say it. You're better than them. Sing this song with me.
I don't even know what the fuck I'm typing at this rate. Just wanted you to know that, again, your situation resonates with me. Reading your words and seeing you like this just breaks me apart. I just wanted you to at least try and sleep in a little more peace tonight. So I'm sorry if I'm sounding retarded.
/a/ - Suicide prevention hotline
Pretty much seconding everything >>437579 said. Focusing on concrete, time sensitive, measurable goals is the best way to get a sense of agency. Keep your purpose at the forefront of your mind. Know always why you're doing something. People overestimate what they can do in a week and underestimate what they can do in a year.
I'll pray for your success anon. Don't lose heart.
I recommend watching Sailor Moon.
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I need to sit down and watch macross, I haven't done that yet. I'm watching Texhnolyze right now, I would be, the stream has my audiotory attention right now so I won't watch all of the rest of it until I outlast miracle anon
I don't I just know that if I knew the right answer and the way to go I"d have done it already. I feel like an idiot for not knowing the right answer. I should know. And because I don't I'm an idiot. An idiot wouldn't have to ask strangers for advice, no matter how many an evening he's spent with them. I should know the right answers myself.
Never ever shall I kill myself. That is not my decision.I am here until I am told to leave.
You're all typing faster than I can respond. But its good to know this isn't just isolated to me. I haven't been given much purpose but when I have one I'll let you all know.
>until I outlast miracle anon
Are you challenging me?